[because we had just outrun a snowstorm]

i always felt like our love was too modern-

too much typing, more conversations had when we were both being in our opposite states

you in your one-story house & me on my 2nd floor...so i fell in love with not being alone, because

it should have been-

both of us driving through downtown anycity or wandering through a flea market that seemed like a better idea the night before.


or paying $3 for a cup of coffee because we had just outrun a snowstorm.

so can we travel back a few hundred days & take back all those silly texts & be face to face best friends?

-- it'd be our best choice.

(written in cursive with a blue pen)

If i could make you come back with just one stanza I'd write you one with words like 'maddeningly' ('no!', you'd say, 'don't be so dramatic, craze.')

-with Spanish accent marks misplaced over every syllable

i'd use colors like carnelian

& add in everything I remember saying that ever

made you laugh.

i am so happy.

[read title]

& it's because of salvation. it lies in Your love, Jesus.

mad future-complexity.

Jesus wins. Love does conquer all. Injustice & loneliness & deserts & death.

...& in other news, today i saw a car swerve to avoid hitting a vulture/buzzard-thing as it snatched up an armadillo corpse. zombie film, animal style. right before my very eyes.

20 days 'til white sulphur springs, one of my favorite places on the swiftly tilting planet.

<3

so many of us dream of you

i'm afraid you won't see the sun
i'm afraid you won't taste the summer
i'm afraid you won't feel my heart
beating next to yours.

i'm sick of all the lies,
i'm sick of too much talk,
i'm sick of everybody saying
that there's not enough room.

so many empty arms.
so many vacant hearts.
so many of us dream about you
and would die to hold you.

so

i will go to war for you.
i will not give up on you.
i will not stop burning for you
or weeping.

love.loss.hope.repeat? not anymore

title says most of what's on my mind.

deep love owed to Jesus because life without him is :

finding fulfillment in human love for even a few months, then it'd crash & days would get longer & longer & the nights would be quickly gone...the cycle kept going & going on 'til Jesus stepped in.

(so there's alots of background & details i'm not shading in, because sin has lost its power & significance.)

now life is light, because God is light, & in Him is no darkness AT ALL.

cate gets married in THREE DAYS.

stream of consciousness yeaaah

watched zombieland tonight. hilarious.

spanish parties be a bit crazy at times...they have second dinner at 3 am- burgers on the grill. for once i was at one of the parties the neighbors wish wasn't happening :P

aaand caroline e. pilgrim is amazin'. best road trip partner alive.

= 1 flat tire, 2 pilgrims, 3 tattoos on mike who helped us, four diet cokes before 10 am ;)

alot of other good quotes. so you had to be there. who cares.

herb is pronounced HERB. not urb. oops.

maggie miller is also a great woman.

it be 2 am.

in two months i'm going to COLLEGE.

this is scary.

(& since this is a blog i can be selfish & talk about just myself. ain't that the point of most blogs? heh)

wells, i miss all the people i can't be with all at once.

aye.

Grace Upon Grace

Grace upon Grace
Sandra McCracken

In every station, new trials and new troubles
Call for more grace than I can afford
Where can I go but to my dear Savior
For mercy that pours from boundless stores.


Grace upon grace, every sin repaired
Every void restored, you will find Him there
In every turning He will prepare you
With grace upon grace.

He made a way for the fallen to rise
Perfect in glory and sacrifice
In sweet communion my need He supplies
He saves and keeps and guards my life

To Thee I run now with great expectation
To honor You with trust like a child
My hopes and desires seek a new destination
and all that You ask Your grace will provide.