[why do you let me stay here?] -she&him

Why don't you sit right down and stay awhile?
We like the same things and I like your style
Its not a secret; why do you keep it?
I'm just sitting on the shelf

I got to get your presence
Let's make it known
I think you're just so pleasant
I would like you for my own

a billion odd people....

I'd be your one and only, but I'd only let you down. Well I want your love but I don't know what I'd do with it. 'Cause there's a hundred fifty thousand people better than me no, there's a hundred million people that are better for you, no there's a billion odd people that are better than me...but you don't know them, and they don't care about you..

all the little random things.

like eating candy a certain way when you're little...
(did you lick your blow pop or bite into the center right away?)

or the way that very occassionally the song that's been in your head all day long comes on the radio & you spend 'til the first chorus jumping up & down excited &
mayhaps texting someone to tell them it happened.

hideous garden gnomes in people's front yards.

finally learning to blow bubbles with your gum, learning to snap your fingers. (i'd say learning to whistle, but i still can't.)

the weird colored blobs you see in front of your eyes when you rub them.

meeting someone in the most randomest way & becoming best mates later on (eh, almost sounds like a fan page thing on facebook?)

llamas instead of horses or cows in a field.

[& merry-happy e-mails you don't expect.]

is this REAL LIFE? (well, yeah. but i'm not on novacaine.)

-springs in 11 DAYS!!! *squee*

& eclipse party tomorrow....i do so love an excuse to make salsa, play quelf, go to a stupid movie, sleep for not very long, & MAKE WAFFLES (in the morning ;)

now playing: red hot chili peppers, dani california. ahhh.

missin' caro, so glad she's having such a chillax summer with no chemistry tests, man.

what an amazing family God stuck me in.

emily kiesling, i'd also like to say thanks for such a fantasmically funny day yest. "it's a fat camp?!?"

(watch heavyweights, hysterical film)

"For the word of the LORD is upright,
and all his work is done in faithfulness.
He loves righteousness and justice;
the earth is full of the steadfast love of the LORD."

-Psalm 33.

common threads & ideas to add to the lists.

Great Hope

is the best, besides being the best already

because it's our common thread

&

one can never go wrong

talking about it

-since truth is so rare-

but also,

i want to fill water balloons with paint & find some darts to throw against a white backdrop & see

what kind of art we could come up with

& find candy legos & build a chalky city.

i don't feel angry that i have to wait

anticipation wins out,

like it almost never does.

THIS IS MY SONG (carbon leaf)

My name is Luck, this is my song
I happened by while you were gone, well...
I apologize that I could not stay
But I hope good things swing your way
I know they will... here's your horseshoe
So best of luck to you

For the stable running brave
From the cradle to the grave
This is my day, this is my song
I am alive... what can go wrong?
If we're on our way-oh, ok let me know
If we're on our way-oh, ok then, let's go

My name is Hope, Luck just ran out
He said he'd return, without a doubt
(ah, but don't you believe him!)
Oh, I happen to have a message from Love
She told me she knows what you've been dreaming of
My name is Hope, this is my song
When things go wrong

For the stable running brave
From the cradle to the grave
This is my day, this is my song
I am alive, what can go wrong?
If we're on our way-oh, ok let me know
If we're on our way-oh, ok then, let's go

Through the windswept countryside
Across the great divide
For the stable running brave
From the cradle to the grave

This is my day, this is my song
As long as I'm alive what can go wrong?
If we're on our way-oh, ok let me know
If we're on our way-oh, ok then, let's go

grapevine fires...

so mayhaps i listen to too much death cab for cutie, but their kind of sad music makes me think about winter, something i know scarcely anything about.

[so i like it]

& another excuse is that it reminds me of days when i listened to it & it caused me to feel deep helpless sorrow. now i can look at it from the outside, knowing i'm no slave to fear.

it's still a sort of precipice i should stay away from, i daresay.

but emotional adrenaline is

[just one more thing i'm not sure about]

[because we had just outrun a snowstorm]

i always felt like our love was too modern-

too much typing, more conversations had when we were both being in our opposite states

you in your one-story house & me on my 2nd floor...so i fell in love with not being alone, because

it should have been-

both of us driving through downtown anycity or wandering through a flea market that seemed like a better idea the night before.


or paying $3 for a cup of coffee because we had just outrun a snowstorm.

so can we travel back a few hundred days & take back all those silly texts & be face to face best friends?

-- it'd be our best choice.

(written in cursive with a blue pen)

If i could make you come back with just one stanza I'd write you one with words like 'maddeningly' ('no!', you'd say, 'don't be so dramatic, craze.')

-with Spanish accent marks misplaced over every syllable

i'd use colors like carnelian

& add in everything I remember saying that ever

made you laugh.

i am so happy.

[read title]

& it's because of salvation. it lies in Your love, Jesus.

mad future-complexity.

Jesus wins. Love does conquer all. Injustice & loneliness & deserts & death.

...& in other news, today i saw a car swerve to avoid hitting a vulture/buzzard-thing as it snatched up an armadillo corpse. zombie film, animal style. right before my very eyes.

20 days 'til white sulphur springs, one of my favorite places on the swiftly tilting planet.

<3

so many of us dream of you

i'm afraid you won't see the sun
i'm afraid you won't taste the summer
i'm afraid you won't feel my heart
beating next to yours.

i'm sick of all the lies,
i'm sick of too much talk,
i'm sick of everybody saying
that there's not enough room.

so many empty arms.
so many vacant hearts.
so many of us dream about you
and would die to hold you.

so

i will go to war for you.
i will not give up on you.
i will not stop burning for you
or weeping.

love.loss.hope.repeat? not anymore

title says most of what's on my mind.

deep love owed to Jesus because life without him is :

finding fulfillment in human love for even a few months, then it'd crash & days would get longer & longer & the nights would be quickly gone...the cycle kept going & going on 'til Jesus stepped in.

(so there's alots of background & details i'm not shading in, because sin has lost its power & significance.)

now life is light, because God is light, & in Him is no darkness AT ALL.

cate gets married in THREE DAYS.

stream of consciousness yeaaah

watched zombieland tonight. hilarious.

spanish parties be a bit crazy at times...they have second dinner at 3 am- burgers on the grill. for once i was at one of the parties the neighbors wish wasn't happening :P

aaand caroline e. pilgrim is amazin'. best road trip partner alive.

= 1 flat tire, 2 pilgrims, 3 tattoos on mike who helped us, four diet cokes before 10 am ;)

alot of other good quotes. so you had to be there. who cares.

herb is pronounced HERB. not urb. oops.

maggie miller is also a great woman.

it be 2 am.

in two months i'm going to COLLEGE.

this is scary.

(& since this is a blog i can be selfish & talk about just myself. ain't that the point of most blogs? heh)

wells, i miss all the people i can't be with all at once.

aye.